Glad you're doing so much better now! I can relate to a lot of what you're writing about here, though my situation is slightly less horrific. Still trying to work myself out of poverty and im hopeful. Its slightly easier as a girl, because you can almost always have a free place to stay, as long as you're willing to sleep with someone. People are stingy as shit with food though, regardless of how much money they have. "Oh, you ate that takeout i had left in the fridge forever and had almost gone bad? I was planning on eating that! I guess instead ill have to eat out for the 8th time this week because i don't like to cook; its not a problem money-wise but im still mad at you."